I’ve found that the majority of my worst moments surround making a decision that is ultimately best for me but I fear backlash or rejection because it’s not the choice that others want or would have me to make. A lot of times it stems from a thought that is probably so far from the truth but it snowballs and I then find myself trying to bring into existence a reality that doesn’t exist. Anxiety is dark and tormenting, a fear tactic, and I’m learning that just because you struggle with it does not mean you are it.
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I’m sharing something today that is very personal but not often shared enough. I’m not going to even begin to pretend that I know everything about anxiety and depression but I just feel some light needs to be shown on this issue. When you leave things hidden, you open the door for those things to be used against you.
Thinking back this is something that I struggled with even in my youth, but I didn’t I recognize it for what it was. There were many times in my teen years where I felt I was having panic attacks but I kept it “together” and to myself because I didn’t think that kind of “behavior” was acceptable. I grew up in a Christ-centered home and I believe that God can deliver you from anything; but you can’t be delivered from something you have not yet acknowledged. My understanding of anxiety growing up was this feeling of being very nervous or the inability to make a decision. I never understood the depth of it, and when you suppress something for so long it grows and “takes over” even more of you. I realize now that feeling it and experiencing it are two different things.
Anxiety and depression is one of those topics that I feel many Christians try to avoid. There’s this stigma that since you gave your life to the Lord you’re “above that”. The problem with this is that there are many of us struggling with things of this nature and don’t know how to find the freedom we long for because we don’t feel safe enough to express it. We’re indirectly told in church to just pray and are quoted a scripture ultimately being left to deal with it on our own. Listen, you are human; Being human is a fragile thing. We are subject to struggle in all forms but, even so, our struggles do not have to overtake us because God has promised us a hope that anchors the soul.
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain... Hebrews 6:19
Beware of Christians who present Christianity, or a relationship with God, as this cutesy easy way of living; those who make it seem as though once you give your life to Christ all your problems and struggles disappear. That’s not truth. Jesus said, “.. in this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
It takes prayer and strengthening of your relationship with Jesus Christ to begin to acknowledge and admit and surrender the things you struggle with. Walking with God is not always easy but a million bad days with Christ is better than one good day without Him, because at least with Christ we have hope; Hope for peace, hope for healing and ultimately hope for freedom.
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Galatians 5:1
Some helpful Resources:
Elevation Church: https://youtu.be/JBH_SudUQoA
Proverbs 31 Ministries: https://www.facebook.com/99550061960/posts/10156682134991961/?d=n&substory_index=0